Guarded

Don't you sometimes feel that you have to guard your heart? My heart has been broken so many times that sometimes I feel that I'm shutting out people. I'll find excuses to push them away, like literally. Trust me its not easy for a guy to be close to me. 

I'm not sure if its me or the fact that I am scared of rejections and the possibilities of things not working out... or maybe I'm just tired of all this drama, I'm tired of this hot and cold, I'm tired of the booty calls or the drunk dial kinda guy. I'm not that kinda girl!